From this day onward, stop questioning yourself about the future. It is yet to come. It is outside of your control. Leave the future for your future self to take care of. You take care of your present Self, the best you can. Be present with yourself and live contentment with what you have. Enjoy the air you breathe and enjoy whatever you do. Don't ask for what you love to do. Whatever is given to you, they are the tasks for you to do for your higher purpose and life experiences. Do it wholeheartedly, with care, and love. Finish whatever you started it. Then move on to the next project, if you have completed it. If you don't want to have to move from project to project, pick a really big mission and work wholeheartedly for a lifetime.
SLEEP EARLY, WAKE UP EARLY. THAT'S LIFE.